Im blown away this morning at the thought that God the Father loves us in the same compacity and measure as He loves the Son (Jesus). Let that sink in for a minute… I am also more and more convinced that its that same love that empowers us. Not that we are powerful because we somehow give love, but we are made powerful when we simply recieve love. When we become an open door for the source to flow through instead of storing up and then pouring out, the limitations are removed and the impossible is possible, at any moment because we have made ourselves available. What I am saying is stop loving, stop working, stop pursuing righteousness in your own strength because you will never get it. How can you? How can you receive a completely spiritual thing in the flesh? Its not possible. What is possible however, is to be so intuned with the heart of the Father, that when He moves, you cant help but move. Think of it as a dance. You are a little girl standing on Daddy’s toes and He is leading you in love. Today, im gonna soak up the love of my Daddy and just dance.
I bet you never thought you would be hearing from me, Im going to let you in on a little secret, you make it through til tomorrow, and many tomorrows after that. Over the next few years, God does some amazing things and learn more than ever. He saves you from yourself and sets you free. You begin to see yourself as beautiful, strong, and valuable. Keep choosing Jesus and keep seeing yourself that way. Right now you are angry, you are chained, you are sad, you are hurting, you are lost. You will soon become joyful, free, found, hopeful, and strong. Hold on through another night because three years later at age 19, God will shock you with what He does. He sets you free and uses you to speak into the life one hurting little girl who is very much like you. You learn to surrender to Him because you realize in yourself, you have nothing but a story. It is in Him that the story has power. He will tell you what to say, what to think, what to feel, and what to do. Because of your surrendered heart and loving spirit, He is using you in ways that you can’t understand now and don’t really understand then but you know He is doing something. You are scared now but remember that God is with you and He is right in front of you leading. Follow close behind from where you are and get ready for an adventure. Enjoy every moment, even the hard ones, because He is growing you. He knows best. Remember that you are never alone and that you can do this. He is going to surprise you what what He can do. Keep fighting, keep choosing Jesus, and keep seeking His heart.
Becca, age 19.